Here we go again..

Oh geez, in my last post I said I was back but haha, I didn't blog for 2 months. Oops. Anyway I've been recuperating from my appendix op, now I'm quite sick of pple asking me what happened so I'll just type it all here.

Okay...so 3 weeks back on the 8th sept I came back home frm camp and felt some pain btw my stomach and chest. I tot it was gastric and went for dinner at my grandparents home. Lied down for awhile after dinner but still felt weird. Took a late shower and felt my body becoming numb. Ugh...so I tried to sleep but was quite hard. I had very bad nightmares and kept groaning thru out the night. Fever set in tho I didn't feel a thing.

My mom kept waking up to take care of me and at 4am we decided to go to a 24hr clinic. I tot there was one at serangoon but apparently it closes at midnight. The cab driver knew of 1 somewhr else so we went there. The doc at this 24hr clinic was some old geezer who was sleeping cos there were no patients. He prodded my stomach area and it hurt ALOT when he poked the right side of my tummy. So he suspected it was appendicitis and said "I'm a general surgeon, I can operate on you at 7am at thomson". I din noe wad to do cos I tot it was just a simple illness, didn't expect to get appendicitis. I din noe if I shld let him operate so I told my mom to come in to help. We decided to go govt hospital instead so he wrote a memo for the hospital pple.

Haha...we landed up at CGH A&E and it was kinda empty. Brought back some memories of when I had my broken hand and landed up there as well. Was attended to by a female doc and yeah, they more or less suspected that my appendix was screwed. So I was injected and put on drip and warded, on 09/09/09. Yes, while pple were happily getting married and proposing I was lying on a hosp bed.

Next day, this cool and professional doctor came with some medical students and examined me. Told me I could go for the op or scan first to confirm, but given the symptoms I had (fever, feel like vomitting, stomach pains esp on right side), it was kinda obvious that it was appendicitis. I took the 2nd option at first, to scan my stomach. But I tot over it and decided it was better to operate. Its like, ur in a situation whr by surgery isnt an option, so you just wanna get it over and done with. I rmb telling him "doc, my life is in ur hands now" and he was kinda shocked and said "no no i'm not performing heart bypass on you" hahaha.

So I was knocked out for the surgery and woke up feeling better den when I had my first op. The doc who operated on me confirmed that my appendix was mildly inflammed or smth and causing the pain so good that I removed it.I couldn't move much as my wound hurt but they discharged me a day later, on 10th sept. Finally, I didn't shower for like 2 days while I was warded. Was given 3 weeks of mc to rest at home and take a break from army. =)

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Here I am now, my scar's still healing but it looks good, got my 7 stitches removed a week ago by my trusty family doc. Kinda dreading going back to work but oh well, have to eventually la huh. Alright guess thats all for now, update soon!

I'm back.

Like what the title states, I'm back. Have been wanting to start blogging again but my life has been centred ard laziness of late. Considered other blog websites like wordpress or livejournal but decided to stick with this haha.

Anyway, I have like 30 mins before I gtg, so lets see what I can blog abt now. Hmm..I just came back from my haircut at the nearby hair saloon, been having my haircuts at this place for a couple of years now. Settled on this stylist, let's just call her E.

Shes a nice person, always makes me look more handsome den I really am (haha). I dun really have doubts abt her hairdressing skill, but alot of times I wondered if she rmb-ed my name and details abt me. Today was no exception. A little backgrd info first:

I had my last haircut there abt 3 weeks ago, and before that I had stopped going to her for abt 4~5 months cos I felt maybe she couldn't cut short, army-approved hairstyles. So I visited the barber and they brutalised my hair, thanks to their blunt thinning scissors pulling out strands of my hair (it hurts, trust me). I decided to put my foot down and stop going to the barber for good, and return to E (sounds romantic eh).

Anyway, during our last haircut she knew I was in army and needed a short neat hairstyle. And we had our little chit chat which would have been better if I could speak chinese well. So the results were quite good, just a little uneven hair at the sides but nothing to complain abt.

Fast forward to today. I went in and while trimming my locks, she asked if I was still working in bnj. I was like thinking "huh..I tot u noe im in army and tt I stopped outside work". A little weird right? But I just carried on our conversation and explained that I stopped working for them for months, and I can't work for them now cos I'm in army. At the start she also asked what style I wanted and it led me to think "eh I'm in army, you should know I want a short neat hairstyle". I seriously tot she had bad memory or smth. Not that I wun go to her anymore if she does.

Well the haircut was good, and I can't rmb when, but I started thinking and realised that hey, she couldn't have that bad a memory, cos she rmb-ed I used to work at bnj! I guess she tot I could still work outside whilst in army. Or maybe she does have abit of STM (short term memory). I can't blame her if she chit chats with all her customers right? Anyway, I guess I have to accept that everytime I step into the saloon, she will rmb me but not everything abt me. Nonetheless, I probably wun go to another hairdresser for the next couple of years as E makes me leave the saloon feeling happy everytime. =)

Alrights it took me 21 mins to type this out. Not bad for my first post in such a long time. Readers (if any), please tag yourself on my tagboard so I know if anyone still bothers visiting my blog. Okie gym time!

You find me irritating..even tho at times I did nothing to offend u,even tho at times I got the right to be upset or I'm not the cause of your problem. I'm here..but does being here help?

Theres so much that I've changed..all becos I want u back. The lovely girl I once knew who I messed up to the person who treats me coldly now. I just really want you back..

Yesterday..

...was probably a kinda good day for me.

Going for cell, giving my usual share of nonsense to hui and co. Laughing a little during sermon abt r/s stuff. Chomping on my white rabbit sweets. Haha..having a good lunch with my cell grp, enjoying their company and chatting alot with them. Its been seriously such a long time since we all sat down and just talked abt everything under the sun, rather den just go our own separate ways after lunch. And my suggestion at watching a movie landed us at gv bishan. When was the last time we watched a movie as a cell? Ages ago man haha.

Thanks to the 4 pairs of listening ears who listened to my craps and my serious stuff while I was driving all of u back. For acc-ing me as I went to top up my cashcard and withdrew money. Bryan, I think you said two words that kinda relate to what I feel now.. e---------- t----. Maybe thats how I felt inside. Thanks for letting me send all of you home, don't worry its not very troublesome for me. =)

You. You'll probably never see this post of mine. But I was really glad u were with me ytd. Tho we didn't do much except eat dinner. I know u listened to every word I said. And you never interrupted me. I'm glad I could tell u so much stuff. Stuff abt us that we settled tho not face to face. Stuff abt what I'm going thru now. I felt like I could carry on with life without her. Felt that I was ready to find my happiness in other aspects of my life. Determined to do stuff like get a job, work out just to make my life better. Thanks for listening to so much of me, and for assuring me that I'm not tt bad afterall. I noe ur sincere..and you are truly a nice person, and tho I din trust u abit in the end, you never got angry and just laughed it off. I know you care for me, even as a friend. =)

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Reading thru the smses u sent to my mom..I think I know whats going thru ur head, what's keeping u away from me. The stubbornness was the result of seeing me hurt myself, seeing me threatening to do stupid things. I've matured thru wad has happened, and I know I can do it. I've been worse, and somehow I came out of it. I may have fallen but I'm standing up again. Please see it and dun let it pass u by. Know that I wun ever kill myself cos of u, or any other girl. Sometimes I do things rashly and out of anger. Dun we all? I hope u forgive me, and allow me to carry on being in ur heart.

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As I was coming home I know I was feeling better, feeling so determined abt life without you. And den later on..towards my sleeping time(I think), I just didn't feel tt determined, didn't feel that good. My heart just..changed. And waking up today I still felt this way. Still missing you. Not as determined to live without you ard, and still very much wanting all of u back, not just bits and pieces, but all of you.

Love languages

Took this off nik's blog and gave it a try.

http://www.greaterquest.com/LoveLanguages.asp

Profile Results

Score Love Language
6 Words of Affirmation
11 Quality Time
2 Receiving of Gifts
3 Acts of Service
8 Physical Touch


How to interpret your Profile Score:

Your highest score indicates your primary love language. Your second highest score indicates your secondary love language. If two scores are identical, you are bilingual (you have two primary love languages). If the scores of your primary and your secondary language are close (for example, 10 & 9 respectfully), it indicates both are important to you. Whatever a significant other does to express love in either of these languages will get emotional points with you. The highest possible score for any language is 12.

Having a clear picture of your primary & secondary love languages will explain much of your past behavior Think back over the past and ask yourself "What have I most often requested from significant others?" Chances are your answer will lie within the scope of your primary & secondary love languages. You have been requesting that which would meet your deepest need for emotional love.

Hmmm...okie,I hope the results are true. =)
And I hope you will see this..