The many "parts" of me

Part of me feels lost
Part of me is hurt
Part of me got misled
Part of me wants to forget you
Part of me knows that we'll probably never be together
Part of me knows you only so little
Part of me acknowledges that we're 2 very different people
Part of me avoids you as much as I can now

But...

Part of me is attracted to you
Part of me still likes you
Part of me wants to know you more
Part of me longs to go out with you again
Part of me will never forget you for a long,long time
Part of me treasures our "dates"
Part of me wishes you could like me
Part of me hopes I'll stop avoiding you
Part of me just feels happy when I see you

(Sorry...I just had to blog this out.I've been feeling like crap and I guess...noone really understands and I can only put it up here.Anyway...to you,I'm really sorry I had to write this out,I hope you understand)

Relive the past

As I trace my steps back
I see the paths that I took
My decisions,thoughts,spoken words
Every single one of them

They helped mold me
Shape me,refine me
Made me strong
And brought out my flaws

Like someone once said
Change the past and
It'll be a different you today
How true,how true

But I guess I gotta learn
How to accept myself
Who I am,today
Not who I could be,today

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Well haven't been posting much about my life lately,only been writing poems that,based on feedback,seem quite nicely written.Anyway I duno if I'm the only 1 who's like this,but I tend to look at past photos,pictures,and just reminisce abt how long ago I took that photo or saved that pic.

Like for example:



















This pic was taken almost exactly a year ago,how time flies eh.I always see the pic and remind myself "wow that was 1 year ago" and think that back then,I looked better.Haha,low self-esteem I know.Btw that pic is gab and I,the mafia lords of asia lol.

Another example:















Aizen!Been more than a year since I got hooked on Bleach,and hooked on this cool badass by the name of Aizen.Hes like the coolest baddy ever,and I hope he pwns all the good guys hehe.Yeah...been almost a year since I got obsessed with him rofl.

Last example:















I call this a consolation picture.This was taken like...almost 2 years ago?I use it to remind myself that "hey daniel...u dun look as bad now compared to the past" and that my pals look better too.We sure have grown alot haha.

Okie guess thats all for now =D