Vivid images of you

It all came to me
This precious,warm feeling
Undeniable affection for you
I thought it was true
This is love.

Sudden surge of emotion
Erased all my other loves
I went crazy
Only for you
Oh how silly I was.

Had to surprise you
Time handed me 2 hours.
All else meant nothing
Love kept me going
Only to kill me.

The long wait it seemed
And then you came
Like an angel without wings
Lightened my spirit within
I fooled myself.

Dinner at the same diner
A different me
And a different she
No reminiscence of the past
All was forgotten.

I led her there
Clueless,curious she was
The movie about a love and future
Seemed appropriate to me
But I was lying.

It had all been prepared
Plushie,card,cake and my heart
To others the usual gimmicks
Even though it meant all to me.
Hid them with my heart in a bag.

Again I led her
Towards the heights of dazzling beauty
Her hopeful eyes
Sparkly in the night skies
I was scared.

My regret was about to start
Somehow it came to this
Thought it would never be
Darkness that was romance's companion
Both that messed with me.

As we walked on
My heart beat furiously
Neuros began connecting awkwardly
I was confused
Yet I pursued.

"I love you...alot"
Those words killed by your consolation
Coupled with the paper rose
I held it firmly
But let my heart slip.

I lost it all
Thoughts that swirled
Could make no sense
I was pushed off a cliff
To be devoured by sorrow.

We left it there
I feebly trod back
My heart,weighing heavy
The love,never pieced back
Was it the end.

I got on by
Managed to get better
No bright side,only wisps of light
Still,the emptiness within
You lingered in me.

But you comforted me
Tried to mend my heart
And you reasoned with me
Like a good friend
Only a good friend.

Shame stuck on me
Loneliness filled me
Hurt gripped me tight
Love abandoned me
And I let it be.

I loved too easily
It was all too quickly
My love,meant to be choosy
Silly me distributed it flippantly
And it broke me down tearfully.

This...was love.