curtains unveiled

Here we go again..

2009-09-28T00:48:00.003+08:00

Oh geez, in my last post I said I was back but haha, I didn't blog for 2 months. Oops. Anyway I've been recuperating from my appendix op, now I'm quite sick of pple asking me what happened so I'll just type it all here.

Okay...so 3 weeks back on the 8th sept I came back home frm camp and felt some pain btw my stomach and chest. I tot it was gastric and went for dinner at my grandparents home. Lied down for awhile after dinner but still felt weird. Took a late shower and felt my body becoming numb. Ugh...so I tried to sleep but was quite hard. I had very bad nightmares and kept groaning thru out the night. Fever set in tho I didn't feel a thing.

My mom kept waking up to take care of me and at 4am we decided to go to a 24hr clinic. I tot there was one at serangoon but apparently it closes at midnight. The cab driver knew of 1 somewhr else so we went there. The doc at this 24hr clinic was some old geezer who was sleeping cos there were no patients. He prodded my stomach area and it hurt ALOT when he poked the right side of my tummy. So he suspected it was appendicitis and said "I'm a general surgeon, I can operate on you at 7am at thomson". I din noe wad to do cos I tot it was just a simple illness, didn't expect to get appendicitis. I din noe if I shld let him operate so I told my mom to come in to help. We decided to go govt hospital instead so he wrote a memo for the hospital pple.

Haha...we landed up at CGH A&E and it was kinda empty. Brought back some memories of when I had my broken hand and landed up there as well. Was attended to by a female doc and yeah, they more or less suspected that my appendix was screwed. So I was injected and put on drip and warded, on 09/09/09. Yes, while pple were happily getting married and proposing I was lying on a hosp bed.

Next day, this cool and professional doctor came with some medical students and examined me. Told me I could go for the op or scan first to confirm, but given the symptoms I had (fever, feel like vomitting, stomach pains esp on right side), it was kinda obvious that it was appendicitis. I took the 2nd option at first, to scan my stomach. But I tot over it and decided it was better to operate. Its like, ur in a situation whr by surgery isnt an option, so you just wanna get it over and done with. I rmb telling him "doc, my life is in ur hands now" and he was kinda shocked and said "no no i'm not performing heart bypass on you" hahaha.

So I was knocked out for the surgery and woke up feeling better den when I had my first op. The doc who operated on me confirmed that my appendix was mildly inflammed or smth and causing the pain so good that I removed it.I couldn't move much as my wound hurt but they discharged me a day later, on 10th sept. Finally, I didn't shower for like 2 days while I was warded. Was given 3 weeks of mc to rest at home and take a break from army. =)

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Here I am now, my scar's still healing but it looks good, got my 7 stitches removed a week ago by my trusty family doc. Kinda dreading going back to work but oh well, have to eventually la huh. Alright guess thats all for now, update soon!

I'm back.

2009-07-10T16:57:00.003+08:00

Like what the title states, I'm back. Have been wanting to start blogging again but my life has been centred ard laziness of late. Considered other blog websites like wordpress or livejournal but decided to stick with this haha.

Anyway, I have like 30 mins before I gtg, so lets see what I can blog abt now. Hmm..I just came back from my haircut at the nearby hair saloon, been having my haircuts at this place for a couple of years now. Settled on this stylist, let's just call her E.

Shes a nice person, always makes me look more handsome den I really am (haha). I dun really have doubts abt her hairdressing skill, but alot of times I wondered if she rmb-ed my name and details abt me. Today was no exception. A little backgrd info first:

I had my last haircut there abt 3 weeks ago, and before that I had stopped going to her for abt 4~5 months cos I felt maybe she couldn't cut short, army-approved hairstyles. So I visited the barber and they brutalised my hair, thanks to their blunt thinning scissors pulling out strands of my hair (it hurts, trust me). I decided to put my foot down and stop going to the barber for good, and return to E (sounds romantic eh).

Anyway, during our last haircut she knew I was in army and needed a short neat hairstyle. And we had our little chit chat which would have been better if I could speak chinese well. So the results were quite good, just a little uneven hair at the sides but nothing to complain abt.

Fast forward to today. I went in and while trimming my locks, she asked if I was still working in bnj. I was like thinking "huh..I tot u noe im in army and tt I stopped outside work". A little weird right? But I just carried on our conversation and explained that I stopped working for them for months, and I can't work for them now cos I'm in army. At the start she also asked what style I wanted and it led me to think "eh I'm in army, you should know I want a short neat hairstyle". I seriously tot she had bad memory or smth. Not that I wun go to her anymore if she does.

Well the haircut was good, and I can't rmb when, but I started thinking and realised that hey, she couldn't have that bad a memory, cos she rmb-ed I used to work at bnj! I guess she tot I could still work outside whilst in army. Or maybe she does have abit of STM (short term memory). I can't blame her if she chit chats with all her customers right? Anyway, I guess I have to accept that everytime I step into the saloon, she will rmb me but not everything abt me. Nonetheless, I probably wun go to another hairdresser for the next couple of years as E makes me leave the saloon feeling happy everytime. =)

Alrights it took me 21 mins to type this out. Not bad for my first post in such a long time. Readers (if any), please tag yourself on my tagboard so I know if anyone still bothers visiting my blog. Okie gym time!

2009-01-20T00:27:00.002+08:00

You find me irritating..even tho at times I did nothing to offend u,even tho at times I got the right to be upset or I'm not the cause of your problem. I'm here..but does being here help?

Theres so much that I've changed..all becos I want u back. The lovely girl I once knew who I messed up to the person who treats me coldly now. I just really want you back..

Yesterday..

2008-05-05T10:01:00.003+08:00

...was probably a kinda good day for me.

Going for cell, giving my usual share of nonsense to hui and co. Laughing a little during sermon abt r/s stuff. Chomping on my white rabbit sweets. Haha..having a good lunch with my cell grp, enjoying their company and chatting alot with them. Its been seriously such a long time since we all sat down and just talked abt everything under the sun, rather den just go our own separate ways after lunch. And my suggestion at watching a movie landed us at gv bishan. When was the last time we watched a movie as a cell? Ages ago man haha.

Thanks to the 4 pairs of listening ears who listened to my craps and my serious stuff while I was driving all of u back. For acc-ing me as I went to top up my cashcard and withdrew money. Bryan, I think you said two words that kinda relate to what I feel now.. e---------- t----. Maybe thats how I felt inside. Thanks for letting me send all of you home, don't worry its not very troublesome for me. =)

You. You'll probably never see this post of mine. But I was really glad u were with me ytd. Tho we didn't do much except eat dinner. I know u listened to every word I said. And you never interrupted me. I'm glad I could tell u so much stuff. Stuff abt us that we settled tho not face to face. Stuff abt what I'm going thru now. I felt like I could carry on with life without her. Felt that I was ready to find my happiness in other aspects of my life. Determined to do stuff like get a job, work out just to make my life better. Thanks for listening to so much of me, and for assuring me that I'm not tt bad afterall. I noe ur sincere..and you are truly a nice person, and tho I din trust u abit in the end, you never got angry and just laughed it off. I know you care for me, even as a friend. =)

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Reading thru the smses u sent to my mom..I think I know whats going thru ur head, what's keeping u away from me. The stubbornness was the result of seeing me hurt myself, seeing me threatening to do stupid things. I've matured thru wad has happened, and I know I can do it. I've been worse, and somehow I came out of it. I may have fallen but I'm standing up again. Please see it and dun let it pass u by. Know that I wun ever kill myself cos of u, or any other girl. Sometimes I do things rashly and out of anger. Dun we all? I hope u forgive me, and allow me to carry on being in ur heart.

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As I was coming home I know I was feeling better, feeling so determined abt life without you. And den later on..towards my sleeping time(I think), I just didn't feel tt determined, didn't feel that good. My heart just..changed. And waking up today I still felt this way. Still missing you. Not as determined to live without you ard, and still very much wanting all of u back, not just bits and pieces, but all of you.

Love languages

2008-05-01T18:28:00.002+08:00

Took this off nik's blog and gave it a try.

http://www.greaterquest.com/LoveLanguages.asp

Profile Results

Score Love Language
6 Words of Affirmation
11 Quality Time
2 Receiving of Gifts
3 Acts of Service
8 Physical Touch

How to interpret your Profile Score:

Your highest score indicates your primary love language. Your second highest score indicates your secondary love language. If two scores are identical, you are bilingual (you have two primary love languages). If the scores of your primary and your secondary language are close (for example, 10 & 9 respectfully), it indicates both are important to you. Whatever a significant other does to express love in either of these languages will get emotional points with you. The highest possible score for any language is 12.

Having a clear picture of your primary & secondary love languages will explain much of your past behavior Think back over the past and ask yourself "What have I most often requested from significant others?" Chances are your answer will lie within the scope of your primary & secondary love languages. You have been requesting that which would meet your deepest need for emotional love.

Hmmm...okie,I hope the results are true. =)
And I hope you will see this..

All I needed to know..

2008-04-08T11:26:00.001+08:00

..was in that one or two sentences.

2008-03-26T23:51:00.001+08:00

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I loved you from the start.

2008-03-13T16:55:00.010+08:00

Hmmm..haven't blogged for 2 months. Guess I've kinda lost the mood to blog,but I'll try to put some interesting stuff down here. Mmm...school ended awhile back,right now I'm waiting for NS. Took up a part time job a few weeks back but quit cos I din really like it. Been getting fatter cos I keep eating good food haha =)

Oh and I just came back from Batam not too long ago.Went with several poly mates,was fun despite the weather being crappy.Haha...did a little shopping(but not for myself),and ate alot of seafood there.Food was good and cheap heh =P Had some alcoholic drinks while I was there and I personally witnessed a fren being zombified after drinking. Did alot of silly things there which I shall not mention haha. Here's some pix of yours truly enjoying himself there:

The resort that we stayed in..holiday inn!

Lunch at the hotel..the satay there has much more meat than those sold in Sg!

They even have A&W at the shopping malls!The strawberry milkshake was yum yum =P

Haha..me posing with cup noodles in the hotel lounge.

Mmm..drinking my flaming bikini!

All red after drinking haha.

On the ferry back with Calvin.

Hmmm...on to other stuff. Haven't really been attending church,but I'm still with my cell =) Miss them at times,miss crapping non-stop with them and basically being a disturbance haha! Oh yeah,I ate with them at this cafe and they got this cool mirror hung on the wall.Took a pic,here it is:

Looks nice rite?Can see my head inside one of the frames.

Is that enough for a "comeback" post?Haha..I dun really noe wad else to post abt but here goes!

Hmm my cell celebrated my bday!Was a simple celebration and they bought me a cap,zzz I dun look good in caps somehow. But thanks fellas,I'll uh..try to wear it someday.They got me some choc cake I think,its called forest fantasy =S Haha..spent the rest of the day at the beach with my special someone. Its been so long since I've really been at the beach and I've never like really dipped myself into the ocean for years. Was a great experience just relaxing there and gazing at the blue sea =D Haha..we had buffet after tt!Ate alot of food there haha. There was this shellfish thingy baked with cheese,ate alot of that =P And they had this delicious strawberry cake.Gosh,took 2 slices and it tasted great! Okie I'll let the pix do the talking again:

Mmm..the forest fantasy cake my cell got for me.

Ah..her "cake" for me,actually its a heart-shaped cookie inside =)

My cf-ers threw me a surprise too!They put me thru some treasure hunt and thank to my great intelligence,I guessed almost all their clues correctly!Got a few wrong tho,and their forfeit was drawing funny stuff on my arms with lipstick =( They got me a mango cake!Tasted great too haha. Ate dinner with them at the garden of a familiar hdb block and we had fun chatting and chasing each other like kids. Oh,and they made me a cushion.Actually they bought a blank cushion and coloured hearts on it as well as wrote some nice bday stuff on the other side. Thanks alot guys,appreciate the effort put into this and I'm glad that I've not been forgotten =) Will upload pix of the celebration once u all give em to me!

Ahh blogged so much..and theres so much more to say actually. Can I have a small request?Can those who haf read thru this post kindly tag on my tagboard?Just wanna see who's still visiting my blog after so many months..silly but thanks! Heh,guess thats all for now,bye bye!

A poem for you.

2008-01-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

Each new day when I open my small brown eyes
I remember all the times we said our goodbyes
Girl I miss you and this is no lie
Without you around perhaps all I can do is cry

The day we met my heart was set ablaze
You sent this silly boy into a daze
Thinking back I'm still so amazed
Everything about you will never be erased

We've gone through many ups and downs
I have to admit I'm always a clown
Constantly making annoying sounds
Yet through all this you are always around

I wish right now I can be by your side
Taking care of you through the night
Making sure everything is alright
When we wake up the day will be bright

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Hope you like it..miss you too~

2007-12-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

I just want u to know that I am here
Tho I may be unable to dry those tears..
If only I could take away ur fears
The one thing I can give to u is my sincere.

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I need the happy-you back. Seeing you like this makes me worried and upset.

Why do I feel this way?

2007-11-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry

Ohhhh

At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away

And everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby

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I am trying my best..but sometimes I just feel so stumped.So unable to be the strong person that I should be.I feel so upset whenever stuff happens and I'm helpless,or when I worry and get jealous for nothing.Is it me taking things too seriously?Am I holding onto you too tightly?Can I ever eliminate the barriers btw us?I dun want much...all I want is for you to be with me,thru thick and thin.To be my happiness,and my joy,to comfort me in my times of sorrow.To be there for me when I need you..and to be all I need in this life.

I miss you so much..and I need you even more..

Busy busy busy

2007-11-08T21:32:00.000+08:00

Kinda busy these days...just had a test 2 days back..and another 4 more to go next week. Plus fyp's been slipping off my mind too much and I don't want to be accused of not doing work,so I'll just tahan till its all finished.

Been thinking these days...alot of pple ard me still keep in touch with their pri and sec sch frens.But when I think abt myself,I realise that alot of those frens of mine haf either gone to army or haf "vanished" somehow.Haha...used to think that I used to haf alot of pals,like we'll go out almost every weekend.Those were the days..but sadly,its gone now.Had a catch up with some sec sch frens abt a month back,the feeling was just so diff.Like we've all drifted,like the jokes we used to share are no longer funny,like no more watching movies tog and all tt.

I can't rmb when was the last time an old fren jio-ed me out.Like "hey daniel lets go catch a movie" or "hey wanna chill or smth".I dun usually get scared when I think of this but the sudden tot..that I'm distant from them,makes me feel abit weird inside.I dun think its right if I'm the one who always asks pple out rite?Zzz..maybe someday things will get better,when everyone's less busy.

Life has its ups and downs I guess.
But theres you to make my life better.

Get well soon..

2007-10-20T01:42:00.000+08:00

I've always cared for you...despite the times it seemed like I didn't.I can't be there 24 hours,but if you need me I'll try my best to be there for you.

My one plea: Please...don't think that I don't care about you. It breaks my heart to know that you think that way =(

Ahhhhh...

2007-09-11T22:49:00.000+08:00

I can't wait for my psp =(

New blogskin!

2007-08-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

Wheeee finally a refreshing new look for my blog! =)

Thanks girl! You make my day. =p

Hols are here...

2007-08-27T12:49:00.001+08:00

...and I'm bored to death.Nothing much I want to do..and I'm still too lazy to clean up my room.Will probably get my butt moving later today.But for now,I'll slack hah.

Hmm...guess I've drifted from alot of friends lately.Some of the pple I hung out with months ago..have alr gone to army.And its funny,I don't really go out often with my poly mates.Sigh..I duno how to deal with this.I feel like pple are so distanced,tt we're so insignificant in each others' lives.Is this part of life's cycle?That we all just float away and do our own stuff and lead our own individual lives?

The lines that separate us get further defined.

I really wish I could catch up with my old friends.Perhaps a small part of me wants to occupy a teeny weeny place in their hearts.Haha emo daniel.

Time really flies..I've got like..ard 6 months left to study in poly?After tt I'll don the green uniform.Another testing period I guess.Shld I go train myself for army?Or shld I just wait till I enter and accept whatever they throw at me?zzz.

You care..when almost everyone else doesn't.

2007-08-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

I'm glad I found you=)

2007-08-01T23:42:00.000+08:00

You unexpectedly entered my life..and I have changed since den.each day it seems that I'm thinking more and more of u.And I'm happy that we see each other often..yet I'm afraid.I dun want u to be affected by wad I told u today..I dun want it to hinder us.And I'm sorry for my actions..tho u dun seem bothered...I duno,I dun want all these to hinder us.I'm afraid of losing u.

"You make my heart skip a beat."

Metaphor of the day/week/month/year

2007-07-14T09:49:00.000+08:00

Grabbing onto sand
That'll eventually trickle out of my hand

Sigh...

2007-07-13T01:20:00.000+08:00

"Someday you won't even remember my name"
But I'll remember yours.

The many "parts" of me

2007-06-27T22:00:00.001+08:00

Part of me feels lost
Part of me is hurt
Part of me got misled
Part of me wants to forget you
Part of me knows that we'll probably never be together
Part of me knows you only so little
Part of me acknowledges that we're 2 very different people
Part of me avoids you as much as I can now

But...

Part of me is attracted to you
Part of me still likes you
Part of me wants to know you more
Part of me longs to go out with you again
Part of me will never forget you for a long,long time
Part of me treasures our "dates"
Part of me wishes you could like me
Part of me hopes I'll stop avoiding you
Part of me just feels happy when I see you

(Sorry...I just had to blog this out.I've been feeling like crap and I guess...noone really understands and I can only put it up here.Anyway...to you,I'm really sorry I had to write this out,I hope you understand)

Relive the past

2007-06-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

As I trace my steps back
I see the paths that I took
My decisions,thoughts,spoken words
Every single one of them

They helped mold me
Shape me,refine me
Made me strong
And brought out my flaws

Like someone once said
Change the past and
It'll be a different you today
How true,how true

But I guess I gotta learn
How to accept myself
Who I am,today
Not who I could be,today

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Well haven't been posting much about my life lately,only been writing poems that,based on feedback,seem quite nicely written.Anyway I duno if I'm the only 1 who's like this,but I tend to look at past photos,pictures,and just reminisce abt how long ago I took that photo or saved that pic.

Like for example:

This pic was taken almost exactly a year ago,how time flies eh.I always see the pic and remind myself "wow that was 1 year ago" and think that back then,I looked better.Haha,low self-esteem I know.Btw that pic is gab and I,the mafia lords of asia lol.

Another example:

Aizen!Been more than a year since I got hooked on Bleach,and hooked on this cool badass by the name of Aizen.Hes like the coolest baddy ever,and I hope he pwns all the good guys hehe.Yeah...been almost a year since I got obsessed with him rofl.

Last example:

I call this a consolation picture.This was taken like...almost 2 years ago?I use it to remind myself that "hey daniel...u dun look as bad now compared to the past" and that my pals look better too.We sure have grown alot haha.

Okie guess thats all for now =D

Vivid images of you

2007-05-30T23:46:00.001+08:00

It all came to me
This precious,warm feeling
Undeniable affection for you
I thought it was true
This is love.

Sudden surge of emotion
Erased all my other loves
I went crazy
Only for you
Oh how silly I was.

Had to surprise you
Time handed me 2 hours.
All else meant nothing
Love kept me going
Only to kill me.

The long wait it seemed
And then you came
Like an angel without wings
Lightened my spirit within
I fooled myself.

Dinner at the same diner
A different me
And a different she
No reminiscence of the past
All was forgotten.

I led her there
Clueless,curious she was
The movie about a love and future
Seemed appropriate to me
But I was lying.

It had all been prepared
Plushie,card,cake and my heart
To others the usual gimmicks
Even though it meant all to me.
Hid them with my heart in a bag.

Again I led her
Towards the heights of dazzling beauty
Her hopeful eyes
Sparkly in the night skies
I was scared.

My regret was about to start
Somehow it came to this
Thought it would never be
Darkness that was romance's companion
Both that messed with me.

As we walked on
My heart beat furiously
Neuros began connecting awkwardly
I was confused
Yet I pursued.

"I love you...alot"
Those words killed by your consolation
Coupled with the paper rose
I held it firmly
But let my heart slip.

I lost it all
Thoughts that swirled
Could make no sense
I was pushed off a cliff
To be devoured by sorrow.

We left it there
I feebly trod back
My heart,weighing heavy
The love,never pieced back
Was it the end.

I got on by
Managed to get better
No bright side,only wisps of light
Still,the emptiness within
You lingered in me.

But you comforted me
Tried to mend my heart
And you reasoned with me
Like a good friend
Only a good friend.

Shame stuck on me
Loneliness filled me
Hurt gripped me tight
Love abandoned me
And I let it be.

I loved too easily
It was all too quickly
My love,meant to be choosy
Silly me distributed it flippantly
And it broke me down tearfully.

This...was love.

Daddy

2007-05-25T00:39:00.000+08:00

Today my dad came back from his overseas trip.We had a good chat,a little about cars and my mom,but mainly about dating.He gave me some good and sensible advice,and we ended up laughing over alot of stuff.Quite rare for a father and son who hardly see each other,even so when we had some bad times.But I guess all those uneventful stuff has been forgotten and we can move on and treat each other properly and respectfully.Some of his wise words include:

"Why go fishing with a rod?Why not throw a net instead?"
"Why give up the entire forest for one tree?"
"Why look at only one cloud when theres the entire sky?"

He taught me how a guy should be like: Un-desperate,spontaneous,cool,calm,natural.His wise words spoke to me,they said "Daniel,don't be too desperate for one girl,theres plenty out there.Just be yourself,be cool,dun try too hard and force things to happen.You'll scare the girl away."Daddy(or papa,which is what I call him even until today) brought across the point that if I get rejected,I should never take it too hard and should instead,laugh it off.Treat it as something silly that I did,laugh it off and move on.

You've got no idea how meaningful and helpful his advice was.We ended up laughing over alot of stuff like how he played it cool and lent this girl his camera lens and took things naturally and his friends ended up being jealous and marvelling at my dad's charm.The conversation between us was so rare,so important to my life,so much needed by me.For all that,I just want to say,I love my dad and I thank him for all we had today.

Oh before I forget,we did talk a little about education.My dad's a cool guy,he mentioned that he didn't really care what I pursued,just as long as I find success and like my life.He even told me I could be a philosopher for all he cared.Haha,how cool is that?

*Hey old man,if you ever get to see this blog,this is the most important bit.As a son,I love you always and I'm proud to have you as a dad,noone else can replace you,ever.Take care and continue snapping those pix!

Tired

2007-05-20T01:12:00.000+08:00

I rented a car on friday.Drove it ard and fetched some friends to go to a bbq party.They told me my driving was good but I tot I was reckless.Anyway,drove in rain,thankfully there were no accidents.Met my classmate for supper at midnight,had a good chit chat abt cars.Realised that I accidentally pulled a lever that opened my bonnet.Thankfully there was a secondary catch and so my bonnet didn't fly up while I drove.Also learnt tt the boot had to be manually locked else pple could steal the things inside.Reached home at 2+am and slept at 3.

Today.Drove to pasir ris to gab's house.Got horned at the expressway cos I was changing lane recklessly.But otherwise the drive was alright.We drove to church,had our lunch,den brought heidi out for a spin.Went to redhill to meet wei lun.Had to travel on the CTE,it was a new experience.Not too bad anyway.We played pool at some ulu shopping centre,and I didn't put a parking coupon.Received a $30 summon damnnit.Met with a dilemma as to whether I should go to church or not go to church and instead drive lun and gab to some other place to watch soccer.Settled the dilemma...drove lun home and apologised for not letting him come along to church.Later on I lost my temper thanks to stupid cyclists who didn't use the pavement and cycled on the roads.Slammed the horn real hard.Drove back to church and made it without really getting lost.

I was physically in church but my mind was on the car.Was utterly distracted today and my desire was to keep driving and not be sitting somewhere.Went to the toilet with gab and stupidly asked some kids if they wanted a spin.Ended up driving gab and mason to tim's area whr there was a bar.Felt like an idiot.Should have told them to stay for service instead of letting them go off halfway to play pool.I should haf stayed in service myself or left by myself.Anyway went to withdraw money and waited for the others to finish service.While u-turning I struck the kerb,was so worried that the tire would puncture.Thankfully it didn't.Gave my cell grp a spin(claudia couldn't come) and I guess they enjoyed it.Took off with nik,shem and heidi.Couldn't find a place to eat and watch soccer.Ended up driving crazily in a private estate.Got horned repeatedly by some nutcase driver.Drove to a petrol station to buy snacks and had supper at a secret location.

After supper,I dropped off heidi,put nik at a busstop and sent shem home.Drove back home and almost got into accident.Bloody car came out of a petrol station without checking for oncoming traffic,I had to jam brake and try to change lane.There was a car on tt other lane and we almost collided.Almost got sandwiched but somehow I made it thru.Stopped at traffic light and rolled down the window.Got the reckless driver(some old man and this wife) to roll down his window.All he could say was "sorry sorry".Damnnit I almost got into an accident and all u can do is give some stupid apology?!Later on I managed to make it home safely and put my parking coupons.

I really duno how I should be feeling.Should I be glad I can drive?Or should I avoid driving for now?Friends tell me I'm good,but I feel that I'm a crazy driver.Pushing the limits at times by reving the engine real hard.Reckless lane changes.Lousy parking.Gosh.

I hate cyclists who dun cycle on the pavement and end up cycling on the road.I hate pple who dun signal.I hate pple who dun watch out for other cars or give a chance for others to change lane.Is being selfish that good?When I see someone cutting into my lane I just allow him to do so.But other pple refuse to slow down for them!Why is society like this?Why is everyone rushing for time?Why the impatience?Why can't pple just live and let live or treat others better?

I'm scared.So scared that I'll get into an accident.I want to drive well but my bad habits are haunting me.Somehow from an exhilarating rush that I got when I drove on friday,it changed today and I feel so sucky now.I feel so indecisive.So fragile.Sigh.Probably should sleep soon.

The eyes that express nothing

2007-04-29T01:58:00.000+08:00

It hurts when I see you
Distanced or near
Your disdain,the unconscious deception
The false pretence that cuts my heart

The words that we speak
Amounting to a little more than nothing
The depth of your mind
Out of my grasp and understanding

I just want to know why
Are you still thinking of me?
Are you concerned about my feelings?
Or was the chapter closed already?

I am a fool.
Maybe the biggest fool
Move on,they all say
But questions have to be answered first

Thank you
Love became vulgar from that day onwards
The jealousy and disbelief
Do I not deserve Love?

Messages that meant the world
Messages that mean nothing now
Thanks for leading me on
Thanks for breaking my heart

Was it that hard to tell?
But you already suspected
Acceptance was a prohibition
Rejection's door wide open

Maybe someday
We'll laugh about it
If we can overcome this veneer of friendliness
For now I'll weep in silence

My eyes express nothing
The laughter masks the sorrow
My pretence similar to yours
But still I care and love

2007-04-12T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hide from the world.
Ignore your friends.
Feel the pain.
The throbbing in your head.
Stare at the mirror.
Look away in disgust.
Climb out of a hole.
Fall back in again.
Lose yourself more and more.
Throw religion out the door.
Is life good?
Screw it all.
Love transcends.
But there's no love.
They understand.
Nothing at all.
I am who I am.
But who the hell am I???

I wanna blog

2007-04-07T00:57:00.000+08:00

but I duno what to blog about.

3 weeks more

2007-03-24T11:40:00.000+08:00

To the end of my attachment!Guess I'll be missing the colleagues there.Work isn't tough haha,I worry more when there's no work than when there's work.Why?Cos I'm sitting outside the manager's office.But so far its been fine.Gotta endure for a few more weeks and then its back to sch.Gah..

But she don't know how I feel.

2007-03-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

I wanted to move on.
I thought I moved on.
But when I saw her.
I couldn't.

That beautiful face.
Her sweet personality that warmed my heart ages ago.
The voice that allured me.
I missed all of it.

We,like distant friends.
Avoided the topic.
I tried to make conversation.
Deep inside I was wounded.

Liking someone is tough.
Expressing your feelings to her is tough.
Rejection is tough.
But the aftermath,is worse.

For though I tell myself.
Daniel,its over now.
She doesn't know how you feel.
You should stop liking her.
Its one sided.
Whats done is done.
Just remain friends.
Like another girl.

But,I still like her.

Time to move on?

2007-03-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

You bet.

Shiok!

2007-02-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

Today,I got to drive home in my cousin's car!Ok I was at my grandma's hse for cny visiting,den when it was time to go my aunt(mom's eldest sis),told us her son could fetch us back.He got married recently btw,and uh..my aunt is ard 60+ yrs old.Anyway my mom and I went down and we got seated,I sat beside my cousin of cos.

Suddenly he turned to me and asked "do you haf confidence in ur driving?"I was like "not really",den he shocked me by replying,"do you noe the way back to ur hse?",followed by,"i haf confidence in ur driving,do u haf confidence in ur driving?"

Opportunity knocked on my door there and den,and guess wad,his car had a p-plate,courtesy of his wife just passing her test a few months back.So even if the cops tell me to stop I wun get cautioned for not having a p-plate.So yeah,we swapped seats and I drove!The car was small so there was virtually no clutch control,and I was worried for my mom and aunt,since there're so old alr(ok maybe my mom isnt tt old).

Had to avoid the highway and take a longer route home,but was quite exciting.Kept my speed low and watched out for other cars,phew heng traffic was low today.Haha reached home safe and sound,oh and I tried to park but failed,so had to resort to underhand means hehehe.Anyway all I can say is,the parking u learn in the driving sch is almost useless.

I'm still excited until now haha,imagine someone actually trusts u with their car,even if its old and small.Hard to find such pple these days.Thanks cousin!Oh and my aunt was so funny,she told my mom "u believe in god rite,pray before he drives."Haha darn funny!And my mom,she had to go call several relatives to tell them how proud she was hahaha!But yeah,I cant wait to acquire my dad's car and take it out for a spin!

A year to remember.

2007-02-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

Around a year ago,a boy found love.Well,at least he wanted to think he found love.Anyway,he went out with this girl,on a very special day.Valentine's day.Though they weren't a couple,and he was a fat bum,he enjoyed her company.He gave her a plushie for he didn't know what to get,and somehow he got cornered on a street and had to buy a stalk of rose for the girl.It hurt him a little when the girl refused to take the rose,but somehow she accepted it in the end.The inferior complex that was in him caused him to be worried,and the boy was lost.

The boy decided to try and lose weight for the girl,so he went jogging.This time round,he was really serious about becoming slim.When his birthday came,the girl sent him a card,and the boy loved it.Soon after,the girl asked him out,for a movie.Of course the boy said yes,who would be stupid enough to say no?So they met up on that day.It was difficult for him to concentrate on the movie as he had to gaze at the girl at the same time.Her laughter and shyness caused him to like her even more.He watched the way she ate her food and liked her even more.He even did some simple drawing for the girl and gave it to her.After they parted ways,the boy felt down and out.Like life held no meaning for him anymore once the girl left him.That feeling sucked.

Later on,he and the girl went to shop for a gift for a fellow friend.They bumped into the girl's sch friends and the boy felt embarassed.They had ice-cream at a restaurant.The boy remembers how the girl held his arm at a pedestrian crossing,for she was afraid that the car coming would not stop.The boy was overjoyed.

Life is cruel.Another fellow friend talked to her abt the boy,and the boy soon found out that the girl treated him only as a friend,and didn't want him to get the wrong idea...

Months passed..

The boy realised he couldn't like her,for it was one-sided.Yet,part of him wanted to continue chasing her,for he didn't know for sure if she would reject him.

It was around 6 months later the boy remembered that the girl's birthday was approaching.So he went to buy her a nice present,and asked her out.He couldn't believe it,the girl actually agreed to go out with him!So they watched a movie,and as usual,he spent more time gazing at her than watching the show.They went shopping,and had dinner.The boy left to find a slice of cake for the girl.He brought her to an open area,and sung her a birthday song.The girl was happy.They shared the cake and spent time chatting.It was late and he sent her home.Though she only wanted him to walk with her till the bus interchange,he walked with her almost all the way to her home.She sent him an sms,telling him how she felt pampered and would treasure the memories.The boy was on cloud nine.

Some time later,the boy witnessed the girl crying.He felt sad too,but couldn't really express words of comfort.So,he shared his weaknesses,hoping she would feel better.He decided to write an encouragement card for her...

Weeks later,he wanted to pass it to her but couldn't find the opportunity to.So he gave it to her sis,and told the sis that he liked the girl.Funny...the sis told that to the girl even though the boy told her not to.Ah..but he wasn't angry with the girl's sis.He was emo during that period of time,wondering if the girl knew he liked her.He couldn't take it anymore.He smsed the girl asking her abt the card and she told him that she found out he liked her,and that they'll talk about it another day.

That was almost 3 weeks ago.The emo-ness gets less each day,but each time the boy thinks of her,he cannot help but feel a tinge of sadness and stupidity.When he sees her,he doesn't know what to say to her anymore.It feels as though she's shrugged off everything and that its not affecting her.The boy feels like crap,and has gone back to gaining weight and infatuating over other girls.

He doesn't know when shes gonna talk about it and the outcome that follows.He hopes he can get his life straight again.He wants to gain back that love for the girl,rather than infatuate over others.Deep down inside he probably still loves her,for who she is...

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Work work

2007-02-11T23:43:00.000+08:00

Gonna start attachment tmr.All the best to myself.Hope my boss is a nice person.Maybe I'll have some pretty colleagues(as if).Haha,but hopefully I'll enjoy myself for the next 9 weeks!

2007-01-28T23:08:00.000+08:00

Uncertainty.

Standing on the ledge,you either jump forward or fall back.

I think I'm gonna fall back.

And hurt myself real bad.

=(

Life is like Lego

2007-01-26T08:52:00.000+08:00

Alright time for some cool vanderLoy philosophies.Thought of it while I was waiting outside the rock audi at sundec,cos theres a lego shop next to it haha..anyway here it goes:

Life is like Lego.Imagine we're all Lego,and since God is our creator,hes the one who builds us,the Lego,into a final product.Now this is the amazing part.We're all DIFFERENT types of Lego,some of us are the build-a-house Lego,some are those Bionicle monster Lego,others are the racing car sort of Lego.This means that eventually when we are fully built,we all form different products.Not everyone is a house,nor a racing car,but we all have our own unique and different final masterpieces.

What does this mean?This means that we're all unique.And God creates us differently.He doesn't make everyone a doctor,else how are we gonna build hospitals?He doesn't make everyone a pastor,else they'll be noone left to preach to.But He makes us all different and we shouldn't be worried if we are not being "built" into something we want,cos God's plans are always for the better.

Yeah some of you might say,"but Lego doesn't just sell 1 racing car what,the racing car got so many types leh".Yeah,Not everyone's meant to be a doctor,but some can be dentists and surgeons etc,similar in some ways but different in others."But but but...you see the Lego shops they sell many of the exact type of Lego".Yeah of cos la,how can there be only 1 doctor?They'll always be many of the same doctors what,else that 1 doctor will haf to work very hard to keep the world population healthy.

In conclusion,don't worry if you wanted to be a particular sort of Lego,but never got the chance to.Just have that faith in God and He'll surely form you into a special kind of Lego,something that may be similar to other Legos,but definitely unique.

2007-01-21T13:44:00.000+08:00

Something for all you lovers out there

Hmm saw this video during my church service ytd,yeah its rather touching and makes me think abt the whole love issue.

When we love someone,are we willing to sacrifice stuff for them?I guess its easier if its something we can always gain back,like money etc.But its nv easy when we sacrifice things like our body parts or give up our career or luxurious life for the one we love.

I guess true love involves alot of sacrifice,and I want to be able to do what the guy did in the video,and even more for my loved one.To really go through thick and thin with her,and not just say it as a vow during our wedding ceremony.Its not abt being a man or a brave chap,but just taking the pain away and comforting the one whom I want to spend my whole life with.

=(=)

2007-01-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

Its been a lousy week.Some stuff I wish didn't happen,happened.

Yet,God is good.I believe He'll change me for the better.

Today(Friday) was great.Dinner and hangout with the cf fellas and celebrating Kat's belated bday hahaha.I seldom say this,but love u pple,its been great knowing u all =)

Another post another day.

2006-12-31T12:32:00.000+08:00

I haven't blogged for quite sometime so I thought I'll just type some stuff here.Hmm...

Its been tiring...day after day.I spend most of my time on dota and the com,guess you can call me an addict alr.Its taken a toll on me,physically and mentally.I see more and more pimples popping up and my mind is so stale at times,I can't even remember stuff properly.

And these past 2 weeks have been crazy.Went for camp,and other then that I've also gone out with friends like almost everyday.The past week I've been to bugis 3x on consecutive days.Ate alot of fast/western food and I can feel myself getting fatter again.Better control myself.

I hate how time flies.Its like 1 day your going out with someone special,or doing something significant,and suddenly time flies and you realise its been so long since that day you went out with that someone special,though it feels like it was just yesterday.Ok if you dun geddit,it means when you reminisce abt something impt that happened,you feel like it just happened yesterday when infact its been quite a few days/weeks since it occurred.Scary for me.

Hmm...nothing else to blog abt so I guess I'll stop here for now.

I'm a happy man

2006-12-20T00:30:00.000+08:00

Been busy the past few days,going out almost everyday with friends.But its been great,thanks everyone!

I'm not who you all make me out to be.

2006-12-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

Don't judge me based on how happy-go-lucky I seem.Or the jokes I make.Or the incessant laughter whenever I'm with you all.Or the clown face that doesn't seem to show a single care about the worries of the world.

Deep down inside,I'm rotten.Probably more rotten than alot of you.I've done alot of bad things,and am still doing them.Not many know,but I'm thankful for those who know and understood.

If you knew who I really am,would you understand and accept me?

Failed driving test

2006-11-27T16:37:00.000+08:00

Yeah,I failed my driving test this morning.Made quite a number of serious mistakes...ahhhhh,I'm not very disappointed,just that I've to wait close to 3 months for my next testdate.Guess when's that?

ITS ON VALENTINE'S DAY!!!Ok so it probably won't affect me much but you never noe,I just might get a gf by then lol.Now its time for rest so I won't take any driving lessons till 2007.Till then,my focus is gonna be on sch work and oh ya,God's work as well=)

Liar!

2006-11-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

Yesterday,as I was walking towards my grandparents house,I spotted these 2 girls pulling a trolley.They seemed to have seen me from a distance and somehow I knew I'll bump into them.Yeah true enough,they stopped me outside the lift.Guess what happened.

They tried to sell me ice-cream.Wow.Bear in mind they weren't carrying a Walls ice-cream container or anything,just some styrofoam boxes and all.So I asked how much?Part of me was like gonna buy cos I got this craving for ice-cream.

"Oh its usual price $18++,now we selling for $14++"

"Sorry I don't have enough money"

"How much do you have?"

"Uh...less than $10,and I still need to buy stuff later"

"Okay nvm"

Yeah that was our short conversation,and after that I reflected upon the incident and realised,what a liar I've become.I had $20 in my wallet,that was definitely enough,and I certainly wasn't using it to buy "stuff".Gah,just feels weird,why didn't I just say no politely,but lied just to get them off my back?Was I afraid that they'll pesist if I don't give a good excuse?Or is it my character to lie and lie and lie?

I'm a liar.

Love.

2006-11-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

If only you knew how much I cared about you.
If only I had the guts to tell you.
If only I didn't fear that our friendship would collapse.
If only I was certain about this love.
If only I truly knew what love was.

Love.

Some pix!

2006-11-06T00:20:00.000+08:00

Yes I've caught the i-love-taking-pix-and-uploading-them-onto-my-blog flu from Ling,who apparently disappeared this morning while chatting with me.Hahaha ok without further ado,here's some pix taken with my lousy hp cam.

Luke,Alwyn and Nic.We're at some cafe in boat quay.

Okay is only 1 pic cos somehow I can't upload others and uh...this post has been in draft mode for a few days so yeah,its not really today that I chatted with Ling Ling haha.

...

2006-10-24T18:17:00.000+08:00

I wish I could turn back time
To when it all started
Stop myself there and then
Perhaps life would be better now
But I can't.

My life,what is it really
The layer of jokes,laughter,fun
Beneath that veneer,ugliness and stench
So lost,so confused,the very evil that is Daniel
Wish I could tear it all up.

So help me my Lord
As I climb out of the hole
and fall into it time and time again
Sometimes accidental,sometimes on purpose
Bring me out of there.

Long awaited update

2006-10-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

Yo everyone.Haven't been able to update these 2 weeks cos I accidentally published a post too many times and blogger tot my blog was a spam blog.Took awhile to unlock my blog due to some other unforeseen circumstances.Anyway,whats impt is,I'm back.

Haha,life's been quite busy for me.Cf has begun to take up alot of my time,not that its bad.It brings me back to my tots abt time.I look back to the time when my year 2 just started,almost half a year ago I guess.The cca fair.What if I didn't walk over to the cf booth and put my name down?What would my life be like now?Certainly I would not haf known the guys and girls of cf,or the staffworkers.I wouldn't haf gone thru bible studies,camp,the outing to botanic gardens and the mooncake festival celebrations,amongst other events.It all traces back to the 1 thing I did,that is,to put my name down on the list of pple interested to join cf.

Weird how 1 action u take can lead to so much stuff happening in ur life.But,I'm glad I took that 1 step,it has really made my life more fulfilling.

Talk abt time.Its been 2 years since the O lvls.Time flies.I miss some of my old friends but I dunno,I guess it'll be hard to meet up with them right now.The pple I were close to,haf become so far from me.Ugh,not a good feeling.

This sem is weird!Theres projects and presentations.Oh man I can't take it,why can't they juz drop these weird modules and give us better timetables?And everyone is bz forming up final year project groups and choosing companies to join for industrial attachment.Its freaking me out a little cos I'm juz so bochap and lazy hehehe.I think I'll be fine tho,cos I'm not the only lazy 1 ard.

To end off this post,I shall start this "One thing about me:" quote which will be at the end of each post,starting today!

One thing about me: I doze off almost everyday,be it in class or at home.

A tribute to a great "friend"

2006-10-03T00:12:00.000+08:00

I'm beginning to appreciate shorter hair,now that I've had it cut.Always wanted longer hair but as my cgl says,it makes me look like I'm wearing a helmet.Fine,so I got it cut again less than 3 weeks after my first haircut.But now its shorter,neater and maybe cooler.

Haven't had time to blog abt the camp I had during the hols,will do so another time.Hmm...school's started.2nd week already and I'm getting adjusted.Somehow I get tired halfway into lectures and I don't really know how to fight the fatigue.I usually end up sleeping for awhile before waking up and realizing that I can't follow the lesson.Sucks I know.

Gonna have my driving test in less than 2 months time.Hope I can pass it on the first attempt den I can drive to places!Like sch,church and maybe to east coast park when I'm feeling bored and need a break.

Ahh my love life.Ok la nth much abt it.Apart from teasing from my cf friends hahaha...all's pretty normal.ITS TIME FOR AN ANALOGY!Its like eating a pizza you see,at first its tasty,enjoyable,sumptuous or whatever.But soon u find it starts to taste funny and u feel like puking,so you stop for awhile.After some time u crave for it again and wanna eat the pizza.Yup I'm currently at the puking part.Bad analogy I know.

I miss Sappy aka Ah Pui,my hamster who departed a few years back.Was talking abt him to Heidi ytd and boy,tt fella really did bring alot of joy into my life.Its not weird for pple to cry over their dead dogs,cats...but a hamster?Yeah I cried tt day,I rmb I had a chinese exam on tt day and I woke up to see him dead.My heart broke and I just cried.I loved him,he was uber cute and cuddly.Imagine a super duper fat DWARF hamster thats nowhere near dwarf size who rolls into a tennis ball when he sleeps.Hahahaha and the fella would woke up and accidentally roll down the cage.He was given food buffets very often,all thanks to me putting him inside the food container where he'll suddenly start vacuuming all the food into his mouth.

Yeah and Ah Pui would doze off!I rmb putting him on my computer table and he wouldn't run off but would walk abit and start to close his eyes and sleep.Reminds you of someone right?Hahaha and I rmb putting him in the freezer once with some other hamsters,just for fun.Wah his fats were really good,he was the only 1 enjoying it inside while the other skinny hamsters were shivering.Yup the good old days whr I really loved pets and loved my dearest hamster.

Rest in peace Ah Pui.

Aizen

2006-09-22T12:10:00.000+08:00

You know when you watch finish a movie/cartoon/tv show/anime and you really like a certain character and wanna be like that character?Yeah for eg. you watch xmen and you suddenly feel like wolverine,strong fierce and all.Yeah I've been watching alot of bleach,its some cool anime and I've been re-watching the episodes for its quality as well as a certain char who's probably the coolest.Lemme present to you this fella,he's Aizen Sousuke!

Yeah that's him,at the start of the anime,very decent looking eh?

Another shot of him.

Ok last shot of him for now...

Haha some things happen in the anime and he supposedly dies,but wait a minute,somehow he comes back and becomes the main baddy.And he sheds that "nice guy" image and becomes this:

Freaking cool,he flicks his hair back and breaks his specs to reveal his true menacing self

Another screenshot I took just ytd,hes the best la

Ain't he cool looking?One of the very few characters to really leave an impression on me.The way he acted like a good guy and his transformation really shocked me.Hate to say this but I don't really mind if he ends up killing up everyone in the anime and ruling over the world haha.

With regard to my previous post

2006-09-14T15:58:00.000+08:00

Your results:
You are Hulk

Hulk		60%
Superman		55%
Spider-Man		50%
Robin		48%
Green Lantern		45%
Iron Man		45%
The Flash		40%
Supergirl		38%
Batman		35%
Wonder Woman		33%
Catwoman		10%

You are a wanderer with
amazing strength.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

See,I'm really like The Hulk rofl.

The Hulk & I

2006-09-14T00:12:00.000+08:00

Somehow I can identify with the green fella up there.For those of you who dun usually watch movies or read comics...or haf no life at all,that guy's the Incredible Hulk!We're similar in some ways,actually only 1:we get pissed easily.Yea,we got our limits and when we get too heated up we react.Hmm for him,he expands and turns green and gains strength and near invulnerability.Uh...for me,well I just start screaming my head off and unfortunately,sometimes things get smashed.

Why am I writing a post abt this?Simple,I got pissed today.During my driving lessons.Sorta regretted my actions,but to put it shortly,I spooked the instructor.Did I smash the car?No,but I did slam the door,hit the steering wheel and horn,whacked hard on the accelerator pedal,and a whole load of other stuff which I wun mention.Yeah it was horrible,and some other students stared at me,but it didn't matter.When you see red,it usually clouds everything else.

I guess those who know me well will know I'm generally slow to anger,yeah I dun get pissed tt easily,but theres a limit to everything.You laugh too loud at a clown and he smashes ur face with pie.Yup,same goes for me,when I get pissed,I explode,and its not a pretty sight.Do I regret?Yea I do,but usually wayy after I explode.

So whats the diff btw Mr Hulk and me?

He has some hot chick who can calm him down,I don't.

Love revisited.

2006-09-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

I envisioned this
My perfect dream
A beautiful house
Full of warmth
Named it Love.

I toiled endlessly
It was tough
Brick after brick
Paint and everything
Love was built.

The news came
Love would crumble
All was futile
I cried inside
And turned away

Not coming back
Afraid, or defeated
I missed Love
My beautiful dream
Yet sadly unattainable

Time has passed
Memories only linger
Happy, sad times
But I ponder
Did Love crumble?

I'm back.

2006-08-31T21:24:00.000+08:00

Haven't blogged for very long,guess I've been too tied up with important stuff in life like...eating...sleeping etc haha.Hmm hols have started,somehow life wasn't very good during my exams period.Cos its like,u gotta deal with ur exam papers and ur own personal problems,and sometimes it really distracts u from doing ur last minute studies.But I'm glad that the exams r over,and yeah,my problems haf mostly been solved.

Been attending car lessons hehe,very new experience for me.How the instructors talk bad abt one another...and I sorta figured theres no "perfect" instructor out there.Some of them prefer to chat alot and at the end u dun get to drive much,others let u do the driving and only teach a little.Guess it all balances out ultimately.Can't wait to get my license den probably can drive to sch.

Went for a retreat the past 2 days...hmmm was quite fun,really took my mind off the stuff happening in my life...stuff like my home,family,friends,even games like dota.Really crapped alot with nic,luke,vic,ian,raymund,yansing and eliza.Oh yea janelle,angeline's baby daughter,is SUPER DUPER CUTE!!!I nv really liked handling babies cos I was afraid I would drop them,but wah,janelle's very very cute.and she seemed to like me alot haha,maybe its a sign I can be a good father =P

Caught up with some primary sch friends today.Haha was great,just chatting with them.Surprisingly I've met up with them more than my sec sch friends.Hope u fellas can organize some gathering soon,cos I desperately wanna meet you-know-who haha..

Ugh,I gotta accomplish alot this hols,intending to complete ard 17 car driving lessons,and since I'm too lazy to get a job,I should probably try to REALLY clean up my room,as well as work out a little and maybe catch up with some friends.Alright guess tts all for now..

Hur hur

2006-08-16T10:44:00.000+08:00

Haha too bored so tried this website...apparently I look like those 8 pple there.Can't believe it,EDDY MURPHY?!!?!Anyway you guys can go try it,gotta register for free but quite fun to play ard with.

2006-08-11T00:03:00.000+08:00

Take off paul's blog...

HOOooo
... If you comment on this post,
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll challenge you to try something.
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you.
4. I'll tell you something I like about you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory about you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you.
8. You must post this on yours

but I doubt anyone will post a comment.

A Love Story

2006-07-25T23:28:00.000+08:00

I met you
We knew each other
For less than a year
We saw each other
Only once a week.

Yet I liked you
Somehow
I wanted to be near you
You were beautiful
In my eyes.

We went out
On a special occasion
Valentines
It was special to me
But maybe not to you.

I didn't know you well
But it didn't matter
I loved the way
You ate your food
Simply delicious.

My affection for you grew
We kept in contact almost everyday
We even watched a movie together
A romance show
Fiction will always be fiction.

I longed to tell you how I felt
How I loved you
But I couldn't,I dared not
For perhaps you didn't feel the same
Love hurts.

Time passed
Not much but enough
You told someone about me
That someone told me all you said
My heart broke.

Shattered dreams
Heart bleeding
Reality set in on that fateful day
I told myself this
Game over.

The pain wore off
And I stopped loving you
We didn't see each other for awhile
Love was one sided
So was the pain inflicted.

4 months
3 dates
2 cards
1 movie
Endless misery.

And now as I see you
Nothing
I feel nothing
Memories fond
But memories hurt.

2006-07-16T22:33:00.000+08:00

Yeah welcome,this is my new blog,and I thought of the title "curtains unveiled" when I was looking at my room curtains.Haha..if your reading this,feel privileged.Not everyone gets to see this blog.Lets just say I decided that some ppl shouldn't read my blog.Dun worry,your not one of them lol.Anyway my old blog's still ard,www.fearstriker.blogspot.com if you wanna go see some old posts.

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I thought after more than a year of not seeing my schoolmates,they would have changed.Guess not,was playing street soccer with a few of them and I guess somehow the animosity is still there.Not all of them,just one guy.Why can't he talk to me normally?Does every sentence that comes out have to be crap?

Yesterday probably wasn't a very good day.Had field soccer in the morning.Thought I was doing okay in the first half...but when 2nd half came,I made a big mistake when catching the ball and it slipped thru my fingers into the back of the goalpost.What a disappointment.Ended up losing the match 1-3.And those bloody red ants kamikazed onto my head!Bit my scalp of cos,thankfully Paul was ard to help me get rid of them.Speaking of Paul,I'm truly thankful that I've a brother like him.Thank you.

"I thought I wouldn't stop loving you,I thought we had something going.Turns out,I know nothing about love,we had nothing going,and I turned my back away."

Registered for car license the other day,hope I can get it asap hehe,driving seems cool but I was so blur when I went to register.Guess I'm a blur king afterall.Gonna be spending alot of time on getting license,hope I can balance my time well or else my studies will get affected,as if they aren't already.

You noe when you go to sch everyday and u meet dumb classmates who can't seem to stop disturbing u?Yeah,I face such shit everyday.I dun mind jokes,really,but when I'm not in a good mood and I tell u to shut up and u dun,it pisses me off.And making stupid comments and making a fool out of urself in public doesn't quite go well with me.I hope I wun explode someday and really give it to them,but I duno.Grow up my "friends".

Hmm what a weird first post,so much negative stuff.I shall end off on a positive note den lol.1 more month till exams den hols!